FML.

Zach- kinda, shouldn't tho
Mark- Do. DONT want to, shouldn't
Dan- Kinda
Connor- Kinda

fml.

I HATE BOYS.

MY SISTER HAS WEED IN HER ROOM AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. O.O

Why must my life be so confusing?

Well, it's that time of the year. Reportcards come out, spring has sprung, and you have to make the choice what highschool to attend next year, and now, I am thouroughly confused. My science marks and my math marks are gunna be terrible. Spring so far, is wet and gorss, and i have no idea what highschool to apply for. Well, actaully, no. That's a lie. I want to go to the same highschool that my friend DreamDay is going to (i wont put the name for the privacy purposes. but it's not like anyone reads this. so yeah.) but my parents are making me apply to a highschool, i REALLY dont want to go to. So i'm stuck. I could say I applied to the school my parents want me to go to, but not actaully, and then I'll get to go to my school. But i would feel terrible for lying to them. I could still apply, but do it last minuite, so that i wont have as much of a chance of getting in as i would if i applied right away, or i could just go to the school my parents want me to go to. MOST LIKELY CHOICE? I'll probably just apply really late, and hope and pray that i dont get into the school my parents want me to go to. I'm terrible huh. I hate having to make choice, and decisions that go against what my parents want for me. But i want to make my own choices, and they still treat me like a baby. I want to be independent, but they wont let me. Sometimes i think they're just trying to ruin my life, and keep me from making choices, but other times i think that they have thier reasons for having restritions on everything. Most of the time tho. I hate my parents. I dont want to be around them, or have to talk to them, or even be around them. I would much rather be with my friends, or even my sister (and that's saying something). They just irritate me right now. And i feel terrible for saying that, but it's true. I love my parents, don't get me wrong, but i can't STAND them.

Why the hell must my life be so confusing? geeze. x_x

Decisions, decisions, decisions.

What to choose what to choose what to choose. Which high school to go to? Which classes to take? Which boy to like? Which dress to buy? Which day to ditch school? lol jk about the last one. I hate choices. Because i fail at decision making. I need someone to tell me what to draw. or write about. or how to do a math problem. Mostly I'm worried because me and all my best friends are all going to different schools. Like. How lame is that? Me and one of my friends are being forced to go to cirten highschools becasuse or parents (or guardian in her case) is making us. My other friend has uber high standards, and is going to a smart shcool. And my other friend is going to a cirten highschool becase his sister goes there. I can only see two good things about this (going to different high schools i mean). And one of them doesn't really apply to me. I shall explain.

1) We get to make new friends. I am TERRIBLE at making friends. I'm actaully surpisingly shy when it comes to meeting new people. I mean. It took me almost 7 years to become friends with one of my now BEST friends. The other one (the guy) i actaully hated when i first met, and didn't really talk to him till grade 6. My other best friend and i were really different for a while. We had different cliques hung out with different people. Had different standards and likes. But now. We are best friends. (See what i mean?) And my other friend, whose really close, i dind't really talk to, and i mean like secrest and stuff till last year. Before we were just good good friends. Now she too, is one of my best friends.

2) I forget what i was going to say xD lol. But i'm sure it was a good idea at the time that i thought of it. But the point of the matter hasn't changed. I AM FREAKING SCARED OUT OF MY WITS OF GOING TO HIGHSCHOOL. I am terrified. TERRIFIED. I will be shy, self concious, mean, closed off, judgemental, basically all the things i have worked on NOT being this year. I will be so foucused on trying to make friends, my grade will suffer, an di might not even make firends. What a raw deal? On the plus side. Me and my best friends don't like that far apart from eachother, so there is a better chance of us keeping in contact. If i loose contact with my friends, i will die. They are so close to me, i feel like they are like fmaily. I can tell them ANYTHING, and they will support me. They are honest with me, they laugh with me (not at me. well...not always xD), they're my friends. I would die wihtout them. And i just might.

The highshcool I am being forced to go to, is huge. Therefore Daunting. A.KA. The end of my life. I hope i find at least one friend. And another thing. Is it really fair to force someone to take Physics when they dont want to. I have a strong dislike for science right now, and math. I want to be an english teacher. ENGLISH TEACHERS DONT NEED SCIENCES IN UNIVERSITY. SO HA.

Another confession i have while i'm confessing right now is that i really hope i dont cry on the last day of school. But i probably will. Another confession i have is that i hope i get kissed. Stupid, i know, cheesy, i know. But I REALLY WANT TO. I've been thinking about it for a while. And i have no idea who i want to kiss me. So long as it's no one gross I'm good. lol. haha. I'm so shallow. But if I don't get kissed, then i will kiss the boy of my choosing. I have no idea who (like i said before), but i'll eventaully like someone in my school. I hope. If not, i will get ownd xD.

Anyways. I hate decisions. And that is final.

NOT recommended.

I just had the most awesome sleepover with my friends. We watched like...5 movies. It was epic. But one movie that was SO GAY it was a waste of money, was Taladeaga Nights. so stupid. It tried to be funny, but it was terrible. One movie you SHOULD see tho, it Slumdog Millionaire. I personally haven't seen it, but i've heard it was awesome, and it got like...8 or 9 Oscars at the awards ceremony last week. =D And my sister says it's good, so go and see it lol.

What's also a good movie is SAW 2. The first one was okay, but it was more like an intro to the second one. And it had a sad ending ( in my opinion) Like. REALLY sad. I felt so bad for Adam. He was left there all alone. It was terrible. But the second one was good. To was more of a horror film, and more suspensful, which was epic. The ending esp. was awesome.

So. Saw 1= Sad
Saw 2= Epic
Taladeaga Nights= NOT recommended.

Dang!

Holy cow. So i just found out that one of my friends is a cheerleader. Thats awesome considering he's a boy. Dan is pretty awesome in general, so this just blows my mind. I hope he's not gay tho o.o
I kinda like him, and that would be awkward xD lol ANYWAYS. Had an awesome day at work. Some lady tried to rip me off, and it's happened to my other friend before too. (same lady i mean) but overall, we ended early, so i ended up chasing my friend around with a spoon because she wacked me with it xD it was so much fun, and it made work less boring. We had fun, which was good becasue it was sooooooo SLOW. holy cow.

I'm excited because i get paid soon (hopefully)

end quote: cheerleading boys-----------------> HOT.

xD

Gg

Wow. Epic fail. My friend just pwnd me by publishing this under the title "something gay" lol.
So yesterday i worked for teh first time by myself. It was boring/crazy. Like all at once i got like..one billion customers. And then they all left. I was like *dies* And some lady got pissed at me me becasue i didn't know the ingredients in this loaf of ROUND bread. Oy. But overall it was good. I also got scared out of my mind. One of the bag boys came up behind me and i kicked over the garbage can i was putting a new bag in. It was funny, but i was like....AHHHHH. and then another one was like... good job, you scared her. xD i was so embaressed.

Nothing huge to say.

EXCEPT that i only have one pair of jeans left becasue they all ripped in the coarse of a month. x_x but it gives me an excuse to go shopping =) I'm also going to dye my hair black and light brown..like layers. But i'm scared it's gunna look terrible. But if it does, i know my friends will tell me (which may or may not be a good thing) jkjk. Love you guys.

My epic point today: gg. (goodgame) for i just got pwnd.

Lets take the moral high road on this one. or at least try to to.

Today we had our school dance today. A danced, etc. Bu then when i asked someone to dance, i apparently "stepped on his feet" and now he's talking to one of my other bf's about it. I'm so embarrassed. I just wanna be his friend, because he's actually an okay guy. Like really. But now he thinks I'm weird or something. So now I'm sad. AGAIN letting my emotions get the better of me. I guess that's why i chose emotionalrampage. *sigh* I guess i have to work at it.

My comment of wisdom for today: "I could chose to be offended but i think I'll take the moral high road.....or at least try too."

Fantastic huh. [note the sarcasm]